Wednesday, April 27, 2005
daunting
depressing
dejecting
disappointing
discouraging
disheartening
dismal
dispiriting
dreary
found those all on thesaurus of course.
my english isn't so good.
i feel like crying now.
seriously.
i'm not joking.
i'm in no mood to joke.
i'm depressed.
i'm sad.
and all the words above can describe how i'm feeling right now.
why must this happen?
how can this happen?
what had happened?
string has got silver for syf.
although i did not perform,
i'm still sad.
the moment i had the news.
am i still sleeping
or maybe dreaming?
the whole world said that their pieces was very nice.
and what happened?
we only get a silver.
i really want to cry.
what's happening?
this is so unfair.
why can't string get at least a gold?
oh well.
they must have worked really hard
it must have been the judges fault
we shall just work harder
until we're the best
and get gold or even gold with honours
in 2007
but first
i'll have to practice hard
for my violin
not only for string
but for my exam.
this is stressful
i have to practice really hard
cause i have a feeling
and i'm certain that
i'll have to perform in front of everyone
when i'm back in canada.
because why?
i have to bring my violin back.
to practice
if not i'll fail my exam
and my mom will start scolding me
that i never practice hard enough.
enough of depressing things
i don't need to rush homework
or study today.
should be rejoicing.
but the results is saddening
is there such a word?
nevermind
who cares anyway.
oh my.
i must have used lots of lines.
i shall stop here
and hide somewhere to cry
and after that
i shall be back on track
and start working hard for everything.
i shall be off.
au revoir!
[31 more days to Canada]
that's it! i can't wait any longer. someone help me. save me. i'm going to go maddd...
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
3:24 AM